secrets of life

So unfortunately I currently work as a cashier, some interesting things happen at this job.

A couple of days ago, a girl about 13 years old came through and bought a pregnancy test. I acted as if the thing she was buying was practically normal, however it was the opposite. I wondered why she would be needing this, did she have a boyfriend. Somehow, I got the feeling she didnt. She was very quiet and reserved. I wanted to help her, tell her what to do, and that everything would be okay. But I dont know that, I dont even know her. My heart just went out to this girl and I don't know what else to do than write about it.

Yesterday I was returning a movie when I noticed a cute old lady trying very hard to open the door. Initially, I thought about returning my movie and leaving, my conscience quickly turned me otherwise. I said " Do you need some help with this door, its kind of heavy.." I opened the next door as well. She answered in the sweetest voice and something about her tone and frail body spoke to me. I had to make a round about way to get out of the store, but I felt a compassionate fiber inside my heart fill up.I thought about how quickly this life goes, how fast we turn around and we're 80. I am thankful that Jesus Christ has saved me from an eternity in hell. All we have to do is admit we've sinned, messed up, believe Jesus died for us on the cross and confess our sins to him.

Please let me know if you have any questions about this, I would be more than happy to oblige you.



Thanks in general

Midnight blues

well I got up early this morning and had THE longest day, but somehow I cant sleep. Makes sense, nope, well the fact that it DOESNT makes sense-makes sense to me. (Nothing ever makes sense)

so lets de-scramble my brain here.



the inspired one

stars fall from my eyes
like the dreams in my mind

the moon shines in my rear view mirror
reflecting the perfection
Ive never mastered

dreams fall from the sky
like the stars align

((the pain remembers the untainted hope
-crushed when we realize
we aren't staying young, enough.))
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Im not sure if I like that last stanza,so lets leave it for now. Let me know what you think!Thanks

maybe now I can sleep.

by myself

I want to get away
from everyone I know
all by myself
would be just fine

By myself
with no heartbreak
or headache
By myself
thinking on my own
recognizing no one

I wish I could leave
absolutely everything
not think
for just a couple of days

By myself
with no heartbreak
or headache
By myself
thinking on my own
recognizing no one

song:I can't think

Im stupid
to fall for you
I cant feel
anything but numbness

can we just
keep playing cards
only if you change them

We can cheat
the game
We can cheat
youd stay
we can cheat
I'll try
not to cry

this wont make sense
(because without you
I cant make sense)
its overdramatic
stupid
the only word I can use
stupid
how I thought I could lie
stupid
how you can catch me
stupid
how I caught you


playing cards
inside our hearts
I had a bad hand
from the start